In the end, still cant manage it well... Pathetic!!! I need a solution!

I realized, doesnt mean all...

I realized, is my attitude and character problem. Nowonder they are leaving me 1 by 1. ok, i accept now. I guess this is fated anyway, or maybe i just not ment to be yet at the moment... i dont know, dun wanna know. Leave it for up there to judge...

21 years of my life...

Today is my 21st birthday... Suppose to be really grand? i dun care i dun want, i love it in simple... 2 hours passed, and im having isomnia.... Thinking, what i've archieve after living 21 years on earth? actually i cant think of anything of what i've archieve... Is that counted a loser? erm, nop, maybe my time is not now? or maybe i think too much? Anyway, happy birthday Jian Pin...

What am i in the relationship??

Erm.... yea, guess wad, im always a substitute for another person. Actually, i hate being in a relationship now, really hard to figure out what really a girls mind really work. im so confuse! Im weak, i can be in a deep shit for a relationship. Im stupid =) its a fact nia... I fell in love with her, but she's in a relationship, and im like more to her boyfriend.. As days comes by, i feel like im a substitute only, ONLY... What the fuck this should be... I hate relationship, i hope i'll choose not to love, and commit to myself.... FUCK LOVE!!!

Comment, readers will think im crazy...

Its been quite sometime?

If this blog were to be a premise, i guess it is full of dust and looks being abandoned? just randomly remembered i have a blog here... haha, im just lazy at first so yea, now im back =) phew gotta get my ass clean up first ^^