Saturday, December 3, 2011

In the end, still cant manage it well... Pathetic!!! I need a solution!

Sunday, November 6, 2011

I realized, doesnt mean all...

I realized, is my attitude and character problem. Nowonder they are leaving me 1 by 1. ok, i accept now. I guess this is fated anyway, or maybe i just not ment to be yet at the moment... i dont know, dun wanna know. Leave it for up there to judge...

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

21 years of my life...

Today is my 21st birthday... Suppose to be really grand? i dun care i dun want, i love it in simple... 2 hours passed, and im having isomnia.... Thinking, what i've archieve after living 21 years on earth? actually i cant think of anything of what i've archieve... Is that counted a loser? erm, nop, maybe my time is not now? or maybe i think too much? Anyway, happy birthday Jian Pin...

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

What am i in the relationship??

Erm.... yea, guess wad, im always a substitute for another person. Actually, i hate being in a relationship now, really hard to figure out what really a girls mind really work. im so confuse! Im weak, i can be in a deep shit for a relationship. Im stupid =) its a fact nia... I fell in love with her, but she's in a relationship, and im like more to her boyfriend.. As days comes by, i feel like im a substitute only, ONLY... What the fuck this should be... I hate relationship, i hope i'll choose not to love, and commit to myself.... FUCK LOVE!!!



Comment, readers will think im crazy...

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Its been quite sometime?

If this blog were to be a premise, i guess it is full of dust and looks being abandoned? just randomly remembered i have a blog here... haha, im just lazy at first so yea, now im back =) phew gotta get my ass clean up first ^^

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

My family members now all tend to take advantages... duno wad will happen next..

I accept wad is fated.. maybe it doesnt belongs to me!!! i dun care now, i dun hope now... but i know, what im doing... i dont judge ppl anymore, because nothing in this world is right or wrong, they have their motive, attitude, experience and courage...

Smile?? yes, im smilling...

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

4 hours more to presentation...

I cant sleep, keep thinking of the FOA... To resit or not? i duno, they are risk... It could be internal risk or external risk, wad shall i do now?? Put a bullet in my head and suicide? Or let myself go with heavyer burden for 2nd year?? Shit man, i hate this kind of challenge... Fuck dup challenge... If grade drops, im finished... sigh

Sunday, March 21, 2010

This call friendship?

If u only find me or visit me when u need help? k, juz turn around and go home... Sick of such ppl

Feel pissed, u still treat me like a baby...

I love my parents, but sometimes, i do hate them very much!!! im 20 now la for heaven sake!!! Dun treat me like a baby pls... iishh

Saturday, March 20, 2010

This sem, final paper, final hope and final chance...

Been pushing myself all out, but, juz a lil of outcome results... Pls dun ask me for game, pls dont ask me for doing wasting time stuff!!! Juz for this sem. the more i think about my life further, the more fear i have... I really dont know how to really start... I have a feeling, tarc is killing ppl slowly, step by step... I can say it this way is because, how much effort i putted in, in the end juz deserve pass? fail? C-? i've enough of C-... If tarc wanna kill me, kill me right now pls... no dragging pls!!! All i want is just a diploma, a DIPLOMA... i wan to have atleast something that can make my parents proud, a graduate pic of me with my parents Picture hang at my living room's wall... Is that very dam hard?

Ka ninia la TARC...