What am i in the relationship??

Erm.... yea, guess wad, im always a substitute for another person. Actually, i hate being in a relationship now, really hard to figure out what really a girls mind really work. im so confuse! Im weak, i can be in a deep shit for a relationship. Im stupid =) its a fact nia... I fell in love with her, but she's in a relationship, and im like more to her boyfriend.. As days comes by, i feel like im a substitute only, ONLY... What the fuck this should be... I hate relationship, i hope i'll choose not to love, and commit to myself.... FUCK LOVE!!!

Comment, readers will think im crazy...