Is been 10 days has gone... Things still remains like tat!!! I juz want a natural smile on my face. Is tat very hard?? I juz duno wad the f*** i wan, who the f***i am, Why the f*** i live in this world... Everything is juz a question mark... Cant i juz can have a full stop?? Seriously, im in the dilema now!!!

Wow, god blessed me... Nearly got an accident tday!!! Was speeding...Nyway, i love it...Now is Juz like this, tday at subang bridge, theres an L shape turn... I was doin quite fast for the sake of "FUN" ( on depress mood)... 5 persons in car... It started like this, i made the turn and after juz a second, i feel things not right and i hop on the brakes... Juz tat moment, the car skided! I got a shock and and i turn more on the stering wheel and release the brake, and the car manage to get back on lane... Is juz around few mm to hit the wall!!! The view was like in the glow and miraclelly i see things goin slow... Lucky i release the brakes... OMG, after the turn my body was shivering... I feel the danger!!! In the car was like a complete silent during the turn but after tat... I can hear my fren saying, JIAN Pin u crazy ass.... Wtf, wah, and so on... zzz Nyway juz an experience... But now i think is fun and lovable!!! I feel better after depress... And now, i will put my life on the steering wheel... JUz feel like doing things that i like...

Omg, tday juz bored from sky to hell.... Bs lecturer is juz simply erm suck!!! How am gona cope??

Tday...

Yesterday, i told myself to wake up at 8am thn prepare my stuff and 1 dota game then head to 1 u for excercise in celebrity fitness... I suppose to do that but... okie, begin like this! I feel annoying when my phone ring ring and ring... I snoz it and i feel very tired and lazy to get up from my Bed... So i slept again till 11... Then rain, great, i've no car... Juz stay at home... Bored, and i ate my lunch at mcd...after that, went home dota!!! My mind juz in mess, i dont even want to think...Coz, she plays in my mind.. Ok, lucky, hwa call me for a drink then basketball... Is a nightmare for today, i noticed my stamina gone and im so NOOB in basketball... I need practice!!! Juz practice.. But im afraid my leg will hurt again... I think is not fully healed yet... I duno how...

Looks like im wasting my time... Week 5, juz oli know a few things, yea, things 1 by 1 happen lately... Especially my family, tday juz kena scold and lecture for nothing! But, i know more about myself a lil bit... So, god, r u playing me or lecturing me?? Lol, I went to Kepong desa park city... Look at the beautiful pond, im alone but i can calm myself down!!! Thx whey meng, for the 1st time u brought me there, i will set that place for my chill out place... A few ppl to thank you... Expecially whey meng, u wake me up to becum a better man... And yea, through scolding ==" haha, nyway, i owe u all alot... tqtqtqtqtqtqtqtqtq

Ok, is over... I will remember it always!!! This place has no happiness for me... I wan to get out... Restart again my life...

5 days, u din update the blog, r u forget or u dun dare to see?? I hope u will keep ur promise...

Sorry mum... My heart is in mess...sorry for making u angry, Juz sorry... I need time...

I've think think think and think... I juz duno how to start, i still think of u!!! i dun have the inspiration anymore... I cant focus anything.... Carying the suck feelings everyday... I cant go on anymore, Im dwn... Till to the bottomness

Smile...

They are reasons to smile... I juz wan to smile!! Lol, lame... want to smile ma, see cartoon lo... or? watch 1 episod of mr.bean...I will smile when i blog...

FOREVER

I came across something... Forever is a lie in the human nature!! Truely experienced... But google said, forever exists juz 3.763% in human nature...Mainly, (respect) Example, genting will always reminds ppl about lim goh tong! It can be forever... Respect takes 3%, mostly for ppl who r famous...0.763% is (love), example, Romeo and juliet, leong sam pak and zhu yin tai and so on... Love last till now... Isit true?? Forever isit true in human nature??lol, curious

Ya, im going to go ahaed towards my dream now... I will try to put down sadness and change to be a new man!!! I take as yesterday's jian pin is dead!!! Welcome to my new life... Hope it works!!! Juz say yes but can... lol

!st Posting...

Erm... ya,have my very own blog now haha!!! Can express and write things all about myself here... lol