Change habit??

Wasting time online... Ntg much to do now, and ya... Will not be so often, maybe good for me? I will still blog daily... Blog is my friend :) Try to spend more time in acc and bs...

Sry Ray for ur car... I hope ur fine with it!!! Lol, tml cheese cake here i come... *o*

Stupid day...

Im really pissed for tday... And, i hate to rely on ppl but i have to!!! Coz of my bro, coz of my aunt, coz of my cousins... My car cant move again due to engine high temperature, so Raymund borrow me his car... But the bad thing is, i puncture hid car tire!!! Ok, nvm, summore im fetching sumone in car, so dam paiseh la... And i got very pissed!!! I suppose to fetch my cousin from school at 12.30pm but i manage to get there at 1 sumthing...

My skin were flaming, the the weather is terrible... Sweat like anything, wad a day!!!== changing tire under the sun is crazy...

I think im disturbing u all the time...

Wad can i say now... erm... ok, this 2 weeks im really happy to get to know u... I realized lots of things while doing comparison... Thank you very much for helping me so much and accompany me... So, good luck in this coming events... And sry i cant be there!!!

Today's u compare to the 1st day i know u is totally diff... Things will change :)

Just wanna say thank you for a million times...

Car overheated today...

Park area
Walk way
== Useless machine

As i drive back from college using MRR2, my car seems like have some funny reaction like losing power, noisy and so on... I looked at the temperature meter and i was like 'stunned' Almost H... Luck i was aware about it... If not? I cant imagine... So i was near kepong and i stop at desa park city( my fav place) At night will be romantic... ==

Day of the thursday ==

Tday, 1st thing i heard is my phone ringing... I got pissed because she destroyed my beautiful dream... So, juz get up and shut the alarm and bathe! It was 5.30am in the morning... After the everything and i decided to drive to college tday... Along the road, my mind plays the music and rhythm of Love story(taylor swift) And i sang the whole song zzz(LAME)

The road is smooth and juz cruise all the way there... Im driving slow and it takes almost 40mins to reach there! Park my car and walk straight to class... (blur)

For this few weeks Im suprise that my acc tutor look up on me so much, everything jian pin solve, jian pin present... so embarrassing, 1 ques wrong... Pai seh, infront of so many ppl... And he wan me to promise him to get atleast B for his sub... == wad is so special about me? Tell other student oso lar... in class not oli jian pin ok?? Not oli all this, He want me to do next week's presentation TODAY... And say, jian pin will be the 1st for this class, the rest do it next week... I was like omg, i haven even prepare anything yet... "go jian pin, juz present, juz speech, no need transparent paper and projector... == ok, then went out and bla bla bla and i wont post wad he ask and i i've presented... Then he passed me... @@ weird lo... I may find him personally...

After this, lecture hall... Sienz...

1st chinese post in blog...

一个无聊的故事

（小心！这是个无聊的故事）

狮子在森林里散步，走着走着，不小心踏到一些东西。狮子举起脚看，糟了！是乌龟的蛋！狮子

看到附近没‘人’（动物）假装看不见，走掉。

其实，乌龟爸爸在附近，只是凭着他细小的力量怎能和狮子理论呢？为了帮他的孩子报仇，于

是，他便在悬崖等待狮子的经过。。

老虎经过，乌龟跳下去！用他的龟壳撞老虎然后逃到河水里

“你以为你剃了胡须我就认不得你吗？”

老虎很不甘心，于是老虎在草堆里等待乌龟。。

小蛇经过，老虎伸出虎爪，爪伤了蛇

“你以为你脱了龟壳我就认不得你吗？”

小蛇很不甘心，于是在树下等待老虎的经过。。

小猫经过，小蛇伸出尾巴绊倒小猫

“你以为你装可爱我就认不得你吗？”

小猫很不甘心，于是在草堆等待蛇的出现。。

蚯蚓经过，小猫伸出猫爪，抓伤蚯蚓

“哈哈！夫债子还！！”

蚯蚓也不甘心。。

过后草蜢也是。。

后来连老鼠也是。。。

这个故事很难停下来。。

I accept the fact that I'm not special..
but I'm aware that I'm unique,
and so for every other people,
all of you are unique to me.

Final message for u...

I listen to it ,
Always remind me about you.
Although something goes wrong,
But i just wish is gonna be alright.( if i can)
I might not be perfect,
But i try to be one of it.
If not i am the one for you,
I will slowly walk away.

I heard new news... It match my prediction100%, i duno when u all started! But i know im stupid, i will try not to view it and know it... Young ppl are looking for fantasy not, they learn but sumtimes regret, i hope u will not regret like me... It sucks, really sucks... And it is not worth it at all!!! Im calm now and i will be wise... Im walking away slowly step by step. There is no point for me to sad, there is no point for me struggle with those feelings... I will take it as a lesson, im still young and still hav a long way to move!! But now, wad is existing now is juz memories... And congratulations... May he will be the one for u...

Sorry... for the past...age gap and no fate, i will accept, coz it is a fact!!! And i will move on... Im happy now and everything changed! So all the best... We have our way path now, Good luck!!!

Prove ur better then yesterday...

Juz think tat, short of sumthing in my life... Juz asked myself today, 'Jian pin, wad have u archieve after 18 years of living?' Can i say ntg? Nvm, i know myself well enough...

Everybody has 24hours a day... So, it depends how u use and maintain those time... For me, except study, sports, fitness center... wad else? Juz think that im wasting most of my time... Will be looking for something to learn and participate...

Music!!! Most of my friends having music root... But now, i feel like learning guitar!! I think, im being influenced!!! Will be looking for guitar class after my coursework2...

So many dam things i have to do...hope it is not too late... I duno wad to blog now, feeling pissed... lol

Tday??? Erm.. not that bad... Atleast can get to go out with ppl from diff college, Which is friends of Philip and Hui... 2 girls, 1 is philips gf!! So at 1st we met and introduce each other and later get ourself boring in mcD... Erm, yea abit of dissapointment, after the meal, we line up to buy movie tickets... Such a long q but expected becoz is sunday... And unfortunately, student card are accepted during weekends.. So, pay more!!! Harry potter, erm, for this time, this show is abit bored but more funny compare to others... Good starting, but a stupid ending, dun really understand the movie... It took almost 3 hours to end this show,so the last 1 hour, me n hui were not really in the mood to watch... The show ends at 5.50pm so we leave... While approaching the exit, so saw those couple seats in the last lane and i recalled sumthing by juz staring it for 2 sec...(which i think the promise is broke) My mind whispering to myself "Dun be stupid, She broke ur promise" ok, so i juz walk rapidly to the exit... Haha, im going to watch H.potter with yi again next week...

Reach hum at around 6.15pm and my dad was washing car... I came back with my bike, so my dad say, 'ya, since ur back, wash the bike aswell' i was like swt... If i dun move, he will keep nag nag and nag... so move my lazy bone and get the cloth and soap... Wash or not oso makes no diff... The bike still remain the shinny... wad to do? juz to shut my dad's mouth!!!

Next week, (begins tml) will be a tough week... I need sleep!! Feel tired easilly and i duno y? weather too hot? maybe... Coursework coursework, it will never ends... Bs, too many simbols, formula and steps... For me is juz crazy... i got 26/50 for my coursework, depressed, juz becoz wrong calculation...

Tday, me and yi talked about pasta... And so it happen im having pasta for dinner due to my parents craving for it so sudden... == nyway, i oli ate meat ball pasta for dinner!! for my parents? Seafood == I cant eat seafood coz chicken pox is recovering... omg, i cant tolerate without seafood... And, me and my bro planned, after 3 months we shogun for japanese buffet... so by the time, eat till satisfy...

Yi, lol... so u owe me a plate of pasta? ^^ haha, who ask u can cook better thn me?? lol, jkjk... Im jk but i still wait for it... Too bad coz im very the 贪吃...

Saturday which has 48 hours... Nice 1

Tday ya, woke up dam early for lecture... I set my alarm at 5.45am... But my class is on 9am... So, feel very lazy and soft boned... I slept at sofa yesterday cause due to too many mosquito in room... So got fedup and went downstairs and sleep sofa!!

So next day, ya normal, leave hum at 7am... Thn reach college and attend college... Class were so bored and everybody is in a sleeping mood.. haiz, wad to do? who ask tday is saturday morning?

Lol, went smkdj tday coz of sumone... my very very 1st time step into dj... But compare to my ex school taman sea, taman sea is sucks... Dj is much more cleaner and more greenery... I had fun tday... Playing with her, she's cute and active... haha, but 1 thing, she love throwing the wet and black cloth at me == hahaha, i 忍... lol!!! Copy ur cat...

Then, left dj school thn go lunch at ming tien And i ate the wrong food, forgot i got chicken pox but juz on recovery stage, omg, hope everthing is fine...So have a chit chat wif whey ming, wai hong and raymund... Lol, i can feel tat hong is a bit pissed due to the politics btw meng? I duno... Lol

After that, went home and i slept in my bro's room with my beg on top me... Too tired, + the weather is so dam crazy so tired + tired= even more tired... Sry Y.yi, din reply u and make u wait... hehe but nyway, tday i Furfilled my promise... I finally made myself smile... Through the heart... :)

Update?Short Note?Kind soul?

You know,

this blog is sooo interesting.

Because its my blog,

and i like it!

*jumps up and down like a kid*

woops.. am too tall. will hit the ceiling.

and oh my gosh, i can hear YY, saying : you crazy ah?? you want your head chopped off is it?? i take cane then you know.

XD

JP, you know what you mean right??

okay la.. its not me here la. its YY updating for him la.

joke of the day:

'ur very cute!'

'how?'

'dont know.'

'i slap you.'

----

okay not a joke, just a funny conversation.

Tday was awesome... This is wad i wan in my life...

Thx to huey ling... I get to know more ppl... I guess i will catch up more on them!! So erm, christian fellows... I think, i may go approach christian? I duno, i feel great while with christian group... Not juz tday,but each time i join thm... So shall i?

I talked to couple of them and share experience, like study life, love life, family... and much much more... we had games, song session and bible talks... After listening tat, i get to unsderstand more bout LIFE...

Kinda lazy to blog anyway... But, seriously i feel awesome tday... I know, alot of grammar mistake above... nah juz leave it, im tired now and feel like goin to bed...

Happy birthday Claris... Erm, im a bad cousin who duno how old r u lol 4 or 5? hehe nvm, and sorry i cant attend ur bday dinner tonight coz im going to KDU for gathering night... hehe, wish ur cute always and grow up pretty...

Ok, towards my feeling(soul call 6 sense...) They've start moving... Haha, i dun give a fucking dam anymore! Wanna go? go lar... hahaha, so wad? Actually, i should be studying now, juz take some minutes in my life to blog here... Get very sick and sien with the formula... Hopefully the exam ques will be simple... Ya, tday is friday, cool... Going for a spin this midnight if im allow to go out! Ya, after my exam, im going to KDU's gathering night... Thx to huei ling??? lol!!!

Yesterday went pasar malam, then yam cha in kayu with H.ling, tracey, jethro, Hazel and cheng ghee... Juz normal, talk lame and smile, laugh!! Then i went home early coz tml exam...== exam sooooo 扫兴...

(time for lame) Sometimes i will think while i see, My own brother of mine... How i wish if i were to be him...Y? If u were my true friends u will know y...I've seen truly through my own eyes...

Birthday is coming, feel like going to genting on that day... erm... see how is goes 1st... Planning to bring Myself for a chill out... I will be busy till next tuesday so by tat time slowly think about it... And i dun wan waste my teenage life, so travel xD

Lol, Y.Yi I owe u alot...

Hehe, thx for all this, i can say this is wad i wanted all this while... The blog is really awesome, its beautiful!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU... But i feel like a banana coz i duno how to decorate my blog... lol, yeah i slept at 2 sharp but now woke up and study again, i feel unwell coz scad mental block...(== im blogging for awhile) But, the chat box, i really want it but just cant subcribe!! TT nvm, i'll try to do it myself!! keke, juz feeling great and now raining+ strong wind... Feelling great in the condo... I guess im ready for exam soon!! I will owe u a meal soon xD.. Juz too confident ==" (confident usually is not my style) 

i will try to get the ear ring for u if i could find the tree tree shop... lol, kk, gtg and im gona stop here... tata night...  ;) thx oh...

Since june 20...

There are many things i cant really understand and solve... Juz like 1by1 happening consistantly, is my life end up on my own? I cant find any fun in college... Those friends are like steping back away and away from me... So now, questions runs on my mind! Wad can i do next? Shall i change college? Shall i give up my current course?(if i do, how im gona tell my parents? how do i discuss with them?) Shall i join leo pji?(can i sacrifies every saturday for it?)

Yean yi, wad u told me is true... But how im gona start? Yes, i feel better after chatting... If not u my phone will remain silence... If u think im always lazy to msg u its ok... And im sorry, my mind is in mess... And im sorry for the late reply...I hope u will understand...

Tday, i went to wei soon's house, i tried to ask him to lead me some account stuff... But end up he were juz trying to lure me to cc... He was my good fren but after entering college, he changed! I helped him alot b4 he got a room to rent... When he need help, he treat me as god... I dun take this as good fren anymore... dissapointed...

Friends with diff frequency wont last long... It works in every sector!

Yeah, i wont care, i dun view, i dun bother anymore... I've put love a side( it is a slowest suicide) Yean yi, i'll prove it to u, so u owe me a meal?? lol... I wont view anything about her:)

I tried to sign in for the MME... But i cant get it coz im still with P license and lack of experience... WTH, make sense meh? I really serious into it... I cant wait for 2 more years man... haiz... Nvm, i will be back in 2 years time... I juz love speeding...

Since saturday...

People are nw soooooo busy... Nobody wan to hang out? Dam sien...All giving excuses... Ok, after my bro's chicken pox, im going back to ipoh... I dun find any entertainment here... I guess ipoh is my town...

My 2 brothers kena chicken pox

Im seriously sorry to my 2 brothers... 1 is my own brother and 1 from another mother...i understand those feelings if it were to be me i'll go crazy... Anyhow, im sorry... Im the desease bringer... zzz Kesian u all...

Having a good weekend...

This weekend is quite fun... My relatives and cousins came for 2 nights in my house... So, is abit noisy but its fun... So this weekend is not so boring...Then we hang out alot, Shopping, and so on... But 1 thing, my chicken pox juz recover so i cant eat crab... So during the eating time(dinner lunch) I oli see thm eat those delicacies... Especially crab... Ya, im talking crab here...

I guess something is going to happen...

I cant care
I cant control
I cant stop
I cant do anything by watching it happen soon... I cant get angry, i cant sad, i cant take it

I stop myself for doing it but i still do it... Is love that powerfull can control people do beyond themself? Im juz very stupid, I wanna give up but i cant do it... I can feel they are something is pulling me to do wad im not suppose to do... i know and i've got alot of advice, i know wad is right and wad is wrong to do... I know im 18 this year, im big enough to think... i know study is important, i know she's gone and will never be back, i know we must think positive, i know i must not waste time, i know i know i know everything i know... But i duno y i cant do it? This shows that im strong or im weak?? I can say im week, i cant control my emotional, things can pull myself dwn juz a "flick" I need to know how to be strong... Must i need that much time to forget? sumtimes i feel like hit somthing on my head so that i can forget everything in pass... I know it sounds stupid, crazy and insane... I wont do that and never do that but i feel like doing it... haiz...

Can i trust again? Can i still accept lies from myself? can i still control myself for not being too into it? I dun wan to be serious... I wan to change to be a better man a more mature guy... Nobody can help me but myself, juz need time... 1 year? say yes if the will power is there...

I want to go to DESA PARK CITY...

After 2 weeks of chicken poxs... i didnt go there... I miss that place so much! The reason i like that place is becoz, the pond and the view calms me down! I remember whey meng brought me there when im totally falls in sadness, depress, moodless... terrible conditions! She drives me there... then we took a walk along the park which surrounded a pond... after that we had a sit... I look at the view of the greenery and the wind blows quite strong and the water is drifting along the stones... I feel relaxing and i tend to forget the sad stuffs + she talks to me and cheer me up... makes me feel very much better! I din know malaysia have such beautiful place... But now, i would love to go now, im having a lil heartsick...

My phone is not entertaining me now...

She is silent for now... She's juz like a dead phone, which i always expect sumthing to make me happy or cheer me up... She brings back the sadness mostly from inbox and songs, ur not with me from now... I juz treat u as a communication tool and thats it... Back to few years ago, im a cell phone expert, i solve frens phone problem... Phone was my fren, best fren... but now, i dun need u anymore!!! Things change, maybe phone is not my entertainment tool for me, age18...

I've tried my best... Juz to save a friendship! Its ok wad choice u make... I respect ur choice!!

Finally, i can go out without worries... Tday is a great day, went one u for chill out!!! Wangan midnight, began to love it... But its costly i know, wad to do? NIce ma... Tday went to clinic to extend mc... omg, the doctor was like so lan si... Nvm, fine, i juz wan tat mc... But lucky he din charge me... So the 3 days mc is foc lol... SO goin back to college in thursday! feeling cool and hope everything is ok... Tday, i wan to thx philip, I hope i will treasure the chance u gave to me...

To YL

What i did i never regret... I hope u too! I hope my post on that blog can make u clear... We are friends!!! =) i dun wan an enemy in this world... Hope u will still update the blog... Part of it is yours...

Sunny sunday??

I slept oli 2 hours... I cant sleep, my brother was on phone wif a girl for the hell of 4 hours.... OMG, so many things to talk meh... I heard the conversation... they are like wad ever crab oso talk... Yin, i salute u!!! And ya, my uncle sleep with us in the same room coz he come and visit us... Wad a miserable night, on my left, my brother talking, on my right, my uncle snorrrrrrrrrring..... How to sleep? So i manage to get myself to dream around 5.30am and i woke up & sumthing... Then i went for a bicycle ride in the park...Im so tired!!! After the breakfast, my uncle left and my family and i went hum!! My bro went for badminton and i have to stay at home "kemas rumah""gotong royong"wif parents!!! Great, i suppose to sleep but.... haiz

I think my mc is goin to extend, My face is still too horrible to go out! Im gonna get mad if the folowing days im still must stay at home... Im fine now but juz my face...omfg, im like a prisoner!!! zzz wad the hell...

Today suppose to be a important day... But is a bad day...

Well, wake up alone again... 1st thing i see is contact list, then i press L! So may i proceed? I told myself no, cause is over... ok, juz off my phone and get off! We are now like enemies, i duno how to start a friendship with u, my impression juz gone towards u... Like juz wad i know, a glass break and can never be fixed back to the original! Juz the time, which i can truly forget what is love... LOve is slowest suicide method... I leave it on fate now, if we are friends then so be it, we are not? I cant do anythings... Juz let the wind judge the direction! Im tired, bored and sick enough!!!

This morning, Heng rang up to me and said(Jian Pin, My introduction and ur essay they done themself d,our wan juz no need to hand it to them...) Worst thing is, i din do anything for the group and i get marks?? i feel so unfair and guilty... I duno wad happen next... Me and heng juz did nothing for them... Pai seh leh....

Its has been 8 days, omfg, I have been at home for this 8 days! The boredom is killing me... And i duno y i can juz get angry easilly? I think hot wether? bored? Haiyo, Began to take this world is the most boring planet...I've got so pissed... After my recovery, im going to ipoh no matter how...I need kampung fresh air!!!

I hope it wil be better then current...

Account assignment, My task SUPPOSE is to do the prime entry! But end up i do essay.. I dont even know who are my groupmates omg... Isit becoz i seldom go to college? seldom in class? or wad? everything need to collect info from heng... omg, jian pin, wad r u doin? Social... Ya, social? how to start? through conver? wad to ask then? Shit... Holy shit... Assignment is almost ready to hand up but im sleeping at home with chicken pox... Omg, the more i think the more question mark in my mind!! I wan to know, WHAT AM SUPPOSE TO DO NOW NEXT?? i really hope next time things comes at the right time...

what info that have you learnt??
how do u learn?
how does the info help u to appriciate subject ABFA 1013 IA?

Well, Good question! I think im the wrong person to ask... What info you have learnt?( actually, i dont know much and if can i dont want to know about account at all) How do you learn?(Mostly, force myself to do some excercise to make me memorize but i dont know what is all about) How does the info help u to appriciate subject ABFA 1013 IA?(Well, i never appriciate subject ABFA 1013 IA! I hate it... I will kick the founder's ass) Thats my answer, what every in the assignment, im lying... Haiz!!!

ZZZ, alone at home again! But this time i can move myself so can independent abit... Thx mum for taking care of me! Bad news now, my wound is getting ichier... Omg...haiz 5 days i hav not be out from my house dont know wad the world is happening... except news... Now i know how bored for those old folks who always stay at home...

Phew...

Im much better now, Think it is on the recovery stage...Hope it cure as fast as i expected!!! But now eating is hard for me, each time i swallow my food, my throat is giving the pain! So , i cant take solid food yet... After recovery, 1st thing to do is eat... Buffet lol...

Wow, third day of chicken pok... I juz cant sit and sleep still! For these 3 days, i din sleep well, wake up almost every 1 hour thn isomnia... zzz Im so tired but the iches juz makes me cant go to sleep! Now my face looks so terrible... Especially my nose, swell (I got a shock while looking at the mirror) omg, hope it will turn back to my original face... TT

Hard time june july...

Lol, chicken pok... So hard to stand the pain and ichiness!!! Lol wad to do? Once in a life time... Ya, june july for me are hard months... Many things happen!!! Ya, tend to be wise thn last time!! Next 2 days coursework liao... I hope i can do it, its time to put dwn sadness! Having Chicken make me realize sumthing... lol